matt grant

locked up

I wonder what it would be like to go to prison.

I’m curious about the psychological impacts it has on you.

How you behave when you have no choices about where to go. When so much of what you are able to do is decided for you.

It represents the complete opposite of my current situation.

Whilst I am focussed currently on how much control I have over creating the life I want to live and being free to determine my own future, part of me is curious as to what sort of mindset arises at the other end of the spectrum.

There’s obviously a lot of factors that would affect that experience.

How you feel about the crime you committed, what the crime was, whether you actually committed it, whether you believe you’ve been wrongly imprisoned, how fair you believe your sentance to be, how long you’re going to be locked up for, the level of your confinement, the list goes on.

And I don’t think it would be possible to fully explore the mental aspect of confinement if you were there voluntarily with the option to end the experience when you chose to. I think you’d have to believe that you were actually trapped. That there was no way out.

Maybe that’s a different mindset again. A life sentance with no chance of parole. I wonder how that feels.

I wonder what this type of thought-experiment says about my current mental state.

I don’t know.

Is there another way to create similar circumstances to explore my curiosity? Maybe homelessness.

I’m not sure. But I’m going to keep exploring this concept.