It can be tempting to feel like a certain behaviour deserves a certain reward, a certain outcome.
But this is never the case.
Nobody owes us anything. And consequently we don’t owe anybody else anything either.
We have to take ownership of the results we create. We have to act in a way that is true to the type of person we want to become. We have to stand up for what we believe in and accept the consequences of our actions.
We can make ourselves suffer. But we can’t expect it to always turn out how we’d hoped. Other people might see it completely differently. Get clear on what you want, on what your purpose is.
Then set about building it.